i’m back…
Posted onMay 15, 2009
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i’ll be back soon to poly.
there are a lot of things to be done before i leave.
i really had good and bad times there.
i cherished the moment, i treasured the experiences gained throughout my period there.
thanks and regards to all.
Alhamdulillah….terima kasih ya Allah atas kurniaanMu ini…
Posted onFebruary 12, 2009
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Ya Allah..it’s so unpredictable! Yes, I could barely believe what I heard when Kak Su called me the other day when I was in my R2001 class.
Yes, it’s the news that I have been waiting for 2 months or so.
Alhamdulillah…I was granted the local MA scholarship. At least I can now have some break from work for real. I just can’t stand the outrageous workloads that nearly make me wanna puke each day.
I promised myself that I am gonna fully utilize this opportunity.
This is just a small step that I have to make and wish me good luck.
Thanks Mak, Ayah, Abang, Mael, Adik for the endless support.
To my friends and colleagues, hang in there guys!
To my students, strive for success!
To you dear, I am me and I am okay. Don’t worry about me. *wink*
lately…
Posted onNovember 7, 2008
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lately, i’ve been busy. yeah…went outstation. day in and day out…driving my way up to KL, down to Shah Alam…then back to PD and up to Sepang…huhu..kalau pegi Shanghai ker, Hanoi ker, Sydney ker besh lah jugak kan?hehehehehe….that would be great huh? but, i’m grateful with what i have…with what Allah gives…He knows the best for his men! *blissed*
lately, i was not really being myself…with all the happenings around me…i was lost…for a while but i regain myself as i go by… *hmmm*
lately, i’ve been listening to more Indonesian numbers and found that they are really poetic in their songlyrics… *addicted*
lately, i felt lonely…i just dunno why? though i’m in a crowd, i felt as if i was being left out…was i? *ulppps*
lately, i didn’t commit to all my commitments…i was drifted and now i’m gonna bear the consequences *darn*
lately, i miss myself…couldn’t find myself…is that me? the same me as what i used to be? as what i am now? *confused*
heartbroken?
Posted onNovember 6, 2008
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darn…my heart broke…
can it be mend?
what does your horoscopes say today?
Posted onSeptember 25, 2008
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Mak aiiiy…There are a lot to be done (by me) before going off for my raye break. Yer laa..once come back after the two weeks break, I’ll be going off to Melaka - attending a CPCM course organized by PMM, Melaka.
Haiyaa…that means I’d have to spend some extra time to replace my missing classes now! *shoot*
In the following week, I’d be off again, as the LI visit started from 20 - 24 October! Yeah ryte…replacement again! *duh*
In short, I’ll be spending more time at work, after raye. Great isn’t it? More and more time at work…lesser and lesser time for myself.
“How long would this last?” - this is the question that would always linger in me…I’m crying out loud within! I’m dying inside - what an exaggeration huh?
Hmm…there’s no use to whimper about the awfully stressing workload and the extremely lesser time spent for oneself as there’s nothing else could be done! The former would be situational as now, the EL unit is facing a shortage number of staff - we’re unexceptionally understaff while the other unit is unexceptionally overstaff! The latter, I suppose could be resolved! Yeah…when there’s a will, there’s always a way, ryte? Though in the end, one would suffer from fatigue, got what I mean? Being exhausted just to fulfill one’s belongingness need according to Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs.
Whatever it is, just enjoy what life has to give. In the end, Allah swt will repay us for all the deeds we’ve done - either good or bad.
Hmm…I can’t really pay full attention to what my horoscopes has to say today. Just get the bottom line straight…
So, slamat menyambut hari raye (and yes, I’m going back to Pilahdelphia later tomorrow I suppose!). Drive safely, wear your seatbelts - either the driver, co-driver or the passengers at the back, get enough rest, get your car fully inspected before the journey and dont speed - speed KILLS!
ryte…maaf zahir batin 
Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)
The Bottom Line
A gift arrives, today — just make sure that it’s for you! Take nothing for granted.
In Detail
A gift arrives today, but you should make sure that it’s for you! Accepting the wrong gift could put you in a very embarrassing position, so it’s in your best interest to try to be more perceptive and meticulous today. Double check your bank account, reconfirm your reservations, and shoot an email to that friend to make sure you’re still on for dinner. You can’t take anything for granted right now — there’s a high potential for confusion, but you can avoid it if you pay attention.
alamak aiii…malu eah!
Posted onSeptember 22, 2008
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adoi aiy!
early this morning, while wa sedang asyik tunggu that network printer memuntahkan documents yang wa suh print, wa ternampak some papers yang isi kandungan nye agak mencurigakan wa!
eay..macam pernah wa tengok jer hasil tulisan ni…
aik…macam pernah wa baca jer bait-bait lirik lagu ni…
eah…url nih macam wa penah nampak ni, eh?
ini wa punye frenster blog nye url ni…
huh?!
cemana lak blog frenster wa leh ter’print ni?
adoi aiii…malu eah…adoi aiii…mano nak letak muka ni?
huhuhu…sure depa orang yang balik lewat semalam dah terbace luahan perasaan wa…
adoi aiy!
Posted onSeptember 22, 2008
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I just dunno why (on earth) I suddenly tuned into listening all sorts of melodiously expressive Indonesian hits lately - maybe it’s due to some depressions as there’re lots of FRPs to be audited, and also an unusually disturbing person, whom I hardly knew, who is currently befriended/unbefriended me (obviously not!).
Hmm…the Indonesian hits are melodious, catchy and quite soothing - so to say, nice to listen to, especially when the songwriters were discussing about relationship; either a successful or a wreckaged ones.
In relation to that, I should say that most of my relationship(s) were the latter ones. I am puzzled, as to why should all the relationship(s) - either built my me, or initiated by others, would always go straight into the drain…wasteful huh!
*duh*
I would not consider myself a loser, but I pitied myself-at times-man!
*hehehehe….we must love ourselves, ryte?*
Hmmm…men come and go in my life - that explains why I’m still single and so damn available - easily! Macam laluan touch’n'go or worst smarTag lane, shoud I say!
*hehehehe…that doesn’t bother at all*
If I were to relate some of the Indonesion hits, I would choose the following songs as I have my own rationale. So, the first song would be Gantung by Melly Goeslow. Rationale for choosing this hit would be for all the hanging relationships; those without proper closure, I used to have. Let me quote from the lyrics:
Ku harus menemui cintaku
Mencerita hubungan kita
Apa masih? atau telah berakhir?
Kau menggantungkan hubungan ini
Kau diamkan aku tanpa sebab
Maunya apa? Ku harus bagaimana?
Sampai kapan kau gantung cerita cintaku
Memberi harapan, hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
dan meninggalkan dirimu…
Detik-detik waktu pun terbuang
Tega nya kau menggantung cintaku
Bicaralah biar semua pasti
Nevertheless, I moved on, as the saying goes, life goes on! Cliche kan? But, it’s true, it’s not worth waiting for something which was not meant for us, ryte? So, just go ahead with what life has to offer, and act calmly! Don’t give such lame excuses as;
Argh…I can’t live without you!
Don’t leave me like this, please!
Please, tell me what did I do wrong?
Sounds pathetically familiar huh? Well, just forget it! That means he’s not good enough for us - or should I say we’re meant for a better person than him?!
*Choose ONE (1) suitable answer only*
The second song would be, Menghapus Jejakmu by Peterpan. I loved this piece as it’s a very direct, straight to the point, saying what one wants to say about the relationship one has! At times, I would experience such hard times to understand how well a human being created by Allah swt the Almighty, functions when dealing with matters relating to feelings, hearts and passion! Memang weird, ciptaan Yang Maha Esa ni, kan? Masya-Allah…
Well, if I were to listen attentively, the lines go:
Terus melangkah melupakanmu
Belah hati perhatikan sikapmu
Jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
Tak mungkin ini tetap bertahanPerlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
Kucoba untuk terus menjauh
Perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
Kucoba untuk lanjutkan itu
Engkau bukanlah segalaku
Bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biar hujan menghapus jejakmu
Clearly that, he does not mean the world to us (or me, to be more precise!). I know, it will be easier said than done, trying to forget all the things; romantically nice words, promises, behaviours and so-much-to-mention, once the relation is over. It takes a while though, to come back and feel the fresh brew of coffee (or tea) everytime we wake up in the morning! Not to forget, to the customs we set when we used to be ‘together’. Yeah…it’s hard, but the hardest part would be mending our broken heart, man. That’s the real hard one!
But, as what Fergie said in Clumsy; “You know this ain’t the first time this happening to me, this lovesick thing, I like serious relationship and a girl like me doesn’t stay single for long. Coz’ everytime my boyfriend and I break up, my world is crushed and I’m all alone, the lovebugs crossed right back up…”
Hehe…seriously, relationship grows each day whether you realize it or not. However, I personally believed that the presence of honesty, commitment, trust, respect, pride and passion are among of the contributing factors which will lead to a well-built and maintained relationship. Without these factors, one could not possibly succeed - look at me, for a quick instance.
I would just go with the flow…come what may, I would still be strong and persistent! I shall not sigh…not anymore. I feel that I’m now all grown and I could always think what is best for me - though I know, looking for a Mr. Perfect is not an easy task as to seduce a Mr. Perfect!
*hik hik hik hik*
Hence, just enjoy life - with or without a man! But, life would be more meaningful if we could have a man on our own…a real man, I suppose. With that, I raise my case.
Thank you.
water oh water!
Posted onSeptember 19, 2008
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this happened yesterday…
it was about 630pm when i returned home from work yesterday, after my intensive MUET class, i went straight to the nearest cafetaria and packed some dishes to be eaten during break fast.
have been planning to do some laundry and shampooing my curl wavy long hair after three hard days of work!
to my surprise, the tap didn’t ‘produce’ a single drop of water to be used!
yey…no water supply!
darn…it was almost break fast time, and luckily i’ve bought some plain rice to be eaten as i know i wouldn’t have enough time to wait for the rice to be cooked.
so, have got to cancel my plan to do laundry but shampooing my precious long, black, wavy, curly hair was done smoothly!
later that night, i woke at nearly 3am, just to check on the water supply but it was to no avail…the tap still not producing any drop of water…
aiyaa…how to cook the rice ni?
takkan i nak pakai air paip bilik air…adoi aiyy…nyampah tollll…
but then, i remembered that i only ate a half of the plain rice i bought earlier…so, that would be my rice for pre-dawn meal later…
i decided to go back to bed and continue sleeping…
as the alarm clock began to ring, i already woke up and ready for my meal in front of the tv in the living room - all alone, as my housemates haven’t got up from bed.
pity them…had to eat biscuits for pre-dawn meal…erkss…my rice wouldn’t be enough to be shared…hehehhee…
i guess we need to store some water as to avoid this from recurring in the future, and i do think we need, terribly need a bin in the kitchen. and i suppose, i need to the drier to hang all my clothes once i do my laundry…
yes…i stayed here already, with Atoy and IdaL…starting earlier this semester!
why? weLL, it’s not really due to the rocketing petrol price but it’s more to the uncredibly non-user friendly timetable that i have!
as a result, i made a decision which i won’t be making 4 years ago…moving out from my parents’ house!
ey…that’s not it! i would still be sending my laundry home every Friday! hehehe…it’s so good to be back home and having my beloved mom to help me with the laundry…hihhihiiiii…
how i miss mom! Mak, I miss you!
yeah ryte! every single hour (that’s way too exaggerating, okay!) mak would ring me; asking my whereabouts - dah sampai ker? (mak, ija leh sampai opis dalam masa 10 minit jer tau!), dah mandi? (dah…padahal blom!), dah makan? (dah…), makan pe? (makan nasik…tak tipu tau…), dah tido ker? (dah…sambil lelap, kujawab tepon mak!)…
ey…what am i rambling about?
huhuhuhu….so, slamat berposa, slamat berbuka…ingatlah,kalau larat tuh, pi lah solat terawih yer! i went to terawih for the first week only, second week aku off…third week ni penat ya amat…minggu depan? ntah ler…
over you…finally
Posted onSeptember 18, 2008
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it’s hard to accept the fact that a relationship is really over…
it’s a painful fact that one has to bear…
not wanting to erase all the ups and downs; the laughters, the cries, the romantic (or unromantic) moments etc…
yet life has to go on…♥→→→→♥♥♥
not wanting or wanting to, one should always accept the fate - may be ill-fated - that God gave!
as what others may say, just forget the past and move forward…
huh…that was pretty much easier said than done!
ryte?
well…frankly, i could hardly do that - if i were to be in such position!
God forbids…hisss…palisss paliss…
as i was busy updating my FRP - which will be audited shortly - i listened my old mp3 lists…and this song struck me…as i listened, i quickly searched for its lyrics, and yes…it talks about having to let go…
it’s the song by Daughtry over you
here’s the lyrics, and enjoice!
The Break is Finally Over…kapishhhhh
Posted onAugust 24, 2008
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Sad but true…
Yes, the break is finally reaching its final day…the last day of the second last semester break this year has arrived.
Sunday 24th August marked the last day of my precious two weeks semester break; the last semester break, I would say.
Means that tomorrow, Monday 25th August, I will be driving back to work as usual with me, being unwell!
Achooo….excuse me!
I was sneezing badly, my nose is blocked and I choked when I cough!
Bad day huh?
I’ve been in this condition since last week. Bad cold! Terrible!
And now I’m coming back to work as a sickbird…kapishh…
